Hello Hopeful New Week!
Good morning friends!
I've written this blog post and erased it on purpose because the words in my heart get jumbled and tangled when they try to make their way here. Words, tripping over one another...but still talking themselves into a tizzy.
I'll start here: My Etsy shop opened up about two months ago. I've had 12 sales! This is exciting! With the excitement came a certain amount of pressure I noticed seeping into the cracks of my daily life....pressure to create BIG, beautiful paintings every. single. time. To always know how to market my shop and who to reach and to spend every free minute promoting the shop. Because what if it goes quiet all of a sudden?
I also had the voice of "not good enough" running rampant through my thoughts. I love my art, I honestly do. BUT, I want to take some classes, practice new techniques, and get better. Instead of looking at my art as a learning experience I just piled all this pressure on myself to be instantly better, every single time. My time is already very limited and disciplined, being a stay-at-home mama. So that added with the pressure I was hanging onto for dear life...just left me unhappy and panicked and stressed.
The lightbulb came on when I read this again. A blog post by my favorite author, I'm in awe of.
"There’s a certain amount of pressure for all of us, I think, to be endlessly productive, to create content around the clock, to say big things every day, if you’re a blogger, or every Sunday if you’re a preacher.
Let’s resist that. It’s not how nature works. It’s not how seasons work. There’s planting and reaping and harvesting, and there’s the practice of letting a field lay fallow for a while, allowing it to prepare again to produce. For the first time in a long time, I’m practicing silence, laying fallow, trusting that the world will keep spinning quite happily without quite so many words from me.
I’m going to listen more than I speak, rest more than I produce, read more than I write, say “no, thank you” more than I say “yes, please, and quick, and more!....
Creative, meaningful work comes from a strong soul, one that’s been fed and nurtured enough to be bold and honest and fearless.
So friends, this is where I'm at.
I still have the same dream tucked inside my heart of making my art come alive and to share it with others. I still want my Etsy shop to be successful. I want to host Rosy Retreats. I can't wait to meet all EIGHT lovely ladies signed up for the September retreat!
But those things are the icing on the cake. If there's only icing.....that just leaves a mess and an upset stomach. There must be cake. There must be real life, with no pressure to be perfect. To write well or paint well I must first live well. I must play without taking a single photo. I must silence the critics and listen to music instead. I must worship and then worship some more.
I choose to ignore the to do list and instead follow my thoughts. Thoughts that prompt me to photograph our farm after the rain, to art journal, to create a bug house with the girls, to set up a beautiful date night on the back deck.
I choose real life relationships first,
not my busy schedule and calendar.
I choose lingering at the breakfast table,
hugging the girls extra long,
setting the table pretty for dinner,
picnics in the yard,
decorating with the anticipation of fall...
then the art comes. The inspiration sparks after I've lived artfully in my real life.
With all that said,
I'm super excited to share some quick DIY ideas with you this week! I'll be giving you a peek into my art journal pages which I've started back up again, sharing an easy date night idea you can enjoy right at home, and giving a glimpse into my studio!
Can you relate to this conversation at all?