real-life video of me

Friends, how are you?  Really and truly?  We are right smack in the midst of God working on our hearts and minds in a way bigger than ever before. I'm not really even sure what that means.  I just feel it.  Physically, mentally.  I've even taken to cleaning out my entire house.  It just feels like we need to be ready for something, although all we're being met with on the adoption front is silence.  I'm not really sure where He's leading (concerning adoption and some other things) and I am clinging to scripture like it's breath.  I find life funny, how all in a day I can be asking super hard questions about adoption/foster care/poverty/etc. and then be met with even harder answers that leave circles under my eyes and an ache so deep in my heart that I can scarcely breathe.  Yet also in the same day come the rhythms of being a stay-at-home mama.  Dishes, laundry, hugs and kisses, a pretend birthday party for puppy ("Bernard"), painting to keep my creativity alive, and cooking.  Thank goodness for the cooking and stacks of books and Gilmore Girls on Netflix and walks outside.  Thank goodness for birthday party planning and trip/adventure planning and silly girls and a garden to tend to.  These are the things that keep me chasing and following hard after the hard. Because of these little moments of good and happy I can do the hard.  God's word says "Be truly glad.  There is wonderful joy ahead."  1 Peter 1:6.

THIS is the truth I cling to today.  Where God is leading us, I just don't know.  I have a feeling it is going to be epically bigger than we originally thought.  But for now, you want to know what I did?  I was having the same conversation in my head a couple weeks ago about how much I adore social media and all the ideas and fun and laughs and prayers and so on.  But that I also understand how curated it can feel.  For example, if you only browse my IG you might think I mostly paint and do creative, fun things and eat delicious food.  Well, the food part is truth, but the rest is myth.  My life is actually much like yours and filled chores and settling in to my role as mama and wife.  And I like that.  So I thought it would be fun to set up my camera on the tripod for 20 minutes of clean-up and see what it looked like from the outside looking in.  

Enjoy the view, send prayers for our family as we walk this adoption road, and eat a delicious plate of food in my honor today friends.  Be back tomorrow!