In the meantime.
"In the meantime" describes this little pocket of life quite well.
I'm going to have a pretty big blog overhaul (thanks to Life Made Lovely and her design team) this summer, but in the meantime here I am. I love this little blog. Not for the fancy reasons like SEO (I know what that is, but don't use it) or for blog stats. I love it for the stories. I hope blogs never go out of style. I keep reading here and there that people don't have time to read blogs anymore, that places like Instagram are better because you can cram more in, faster. Basically, our minds must be the size of a gnat or hummingbird by now!
Sure, I admit with my recent computer woes (which still aren't fixed, due to me) and with my real life becoming fuller (an answer to prayer) my blog has been treated more like a fast-food restaurant than a nice, long sit around the table.
I'm not quite sure I like that one bit. But I'd rather show up than not so I apologize if my hello's or how are you's or comments have been seriously lacking lately. It's been grab and go around the blog lately.
(this is our new art room/studio/workspace-Brett built me the table for Mother's Day!)
When I say that prayers have been answered I mean that this spring's story feels totally opposite of last spring and I'm glad. Last year was all about big ideas and LOTS of ideas and running four miles a day and being too critical of my weight and saying hi to LOTS of people but not really connecting to any.
This year is about sticking to a few ideas and going deep with them, instead of saying yes to everything that comes my way. It's about dating Brett well....and choosing chores and family and love over art. It's about choosing to take care of my body because it is truly a temple of God but it's also about laying obsession aside. It's about NOT being the gal that shows up at every table, apologizing for what she put on her plate. It's about cooking good food with my cousin and closest friend Lillie, on Monday nights and enjoying every single bit.
In college they tried to teach us about priorities. I remember one skit with a large glass jar, big rocks, and sand. The big rocks represented the most important priorities in our lives, the sand equaled the small stuff. Without speaking they showed us what happened when the small stuff (the sand) was poured in first and then you tried to fit the big rocks (the real priorities) on top. It just didn't fit.
Next they put the real priorities in first (the big rocks) and then poured the small stuff in after (the sand). The small stuff flowed and filled in nicely around the big priorities.
That little object lesson is exactly how I would sum up spring so far. Choosing the big rocks, the most important priorities. There are some nights I want to paint or create but I remind myself how unfair and sad it would be if I chose that over building my relationship with Brett every time. Sure there are exceptions. But I can't fuel the fire of my art and business and leave the things that matter the most to me trailing behind. And so, the blog and emails and blog comments and a whole handful of other things just haven't gotten my attention lately.
I sense a change coming for the blog, but I just don't know what that will look like yet beyond the physical. I'll be sure to keep you updated.
In the meantime, here's to choosing grace for our bodies, love for our families, and the big rocks over the small sand.